Fear draining me

[Ilana Schutte]

A couple of months back I had my Tarot read, never before have I done this but on that say my close friend and teacher offered to teach me.
I was surprised that the cards I chose actually did portray my feelings for the present and past and that how the future card scared me for how I suspected things would go the card proved right.
That future card said that I would have to make the decision and take control of fate, since I am married and the decision that had to be made was my husbands I was confused.
Last week I started taking lead on finding job opportunities for him since things need to change for us, and as I started taking control my dreams started revolving around death.
I first dreamed that I drove over a child and it went downhill from there. Every evening I would see death.
I once heard that dreaming of death means a transition in your life, the old dying and such.
But this might be wrong just as the Tarot is.
I might just be desperately clawing for a why out of the ditch I am in.
I am hoping and praying my husband finds a new job this week, and it scares me to think he might not and we will forever be stuck in this situation.
I know everybody is suffering and that everyone of us want to be happy and free to make our own choices, but lately I feel that every move we make we get judged for by his family since he works for them.
As I read this it sounds like I am exaggerating, every family has it's problems, but this has gone past family problems or even business, this is his own sibling trying to break us up for the millionth time and since she seems to not succeed she wants to get him fired. Why did I think things would be better after we got married?
It got worse! I am scared of what will happen.

[Ilana Schutte]

Wow, you guys are awesome! Thank you! Both of you!
I did take the advice and started freelancing as a graphic designer, and I am doing pretty darn well!
Its so wonderful to know that there are people, who even though they don't know you, can still relate and give wise advice.
Thank you I feel so blessed

[Genesis Davies]

I have a nasty set of in-laws, as well, with my husband's mother and sister constantly trying to make life hard for him (us!). It's petty and silly, but what can you do? You can't change them, you can only change you. My suggestion, as someone who has dealt with this, is to try to ignore them and get on with life. Like Arwen said, their negativity can destroy your marriage, but not only that, it can make you feel like it doesn't matter what you do because they will always be there to bring you down . . . don't let them!!!

You and your husband are together for a reason. Support each other in this and you'll make it. It's hard to be out of work and struggling and worse when someone is kicking you while you're down, but you aren't the only ones in this situation. Why not find some other couples that you can share with, even if online? And keep up that job search, though I would second Arwen and suggest that you look into your own work at home options.

Hang in there!

[Ilana Schutte]

Thank you so much for those words!

[Arwen Taylor]

The only constant in life is change. Maybe the decision that needs to be made is to take a leap and work for yourselves. Jobs are hard to come by these days. One of the reasons I started my own business as a freelance writer was because I could not get a "real" job. Even though things are a little rough, if someone called me and offered me a job today, I probably wouldn't take it.

Unfortunately when you get married you're not just marrying that person but the whole family! Sometimes, though, in order to save your sanity you just have to tell them to go jump in a lake and roll with what ya got. Try to find other people who are more supportive of you and your husband. The negativity his family members are throwing at you will poison your marriage.

Feel free to contact me if you want to talk :)